Dare to dream ,but don't be suprised by these fucking breakdowns

I use to think I had my chances.... what a fucking idiot I am.... I hate to love because it hurts so bad and it ONLY hurt for a lonely heart like me..... I guess I just don't deserve it , I guess I just don't have this ''little stars'' in my eyes , I guess I just don't shine like they do....

I fucking hate to be broken like this , why do I fucking HAVE to love ?! What the FUCK I DID TO DESERVE THAT?!
I am not worth it fuckers!! I don't fucking wanna go back , and it's good 'cause we'll never go back , it's over!

I'm so sick of always thinking about him, it kills me (especialy when I know that I'll never be heard) I'm so tired of always be saying the words ''me'' or ''I'' or ''myself'' I would like to worry for someone , to be looking after him or making his happiness and pleasure more important than mine.... I'd like to not be the center of my own existance ( lame and boring)

Another rainy day in my heart, with a beautiful blue sk as a background in town today
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# Posté le lundi 07 juillet 2008 00:38

there'S nothing like a loved one to make you feel like hell

J'ai besoin de parlé à quelqu'un
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# Posté le vendredi 04 juillet 2008 23:50

Don't worry

I don't know... I know I can't change anything but I can't stop to shed these tears.... I'll never see him again and I should not care but I fucking do..... They say I should forget and move on , but forget what? Nothing ever happened and I guess that is what hurt the most... How can you move on on empty?

I can't put words on my own emotions ,I can 't talk for myself, I can't make a move 'cause I want but 'cause I forced to..,.. If self-pity is meaningless than my life is not worth the pain of living.... Nobody will ever give you a chance when you're a gronw up.. The sky is blue but I can't make my way to appreciate it and nobody can force me to..... I don't feel like I am strong enough....

Come to me and talk of what a FUCKING WASTE I am.. Honestly I can't find any reason why someone could love me and it fucking kills me.... Why am I me? Why am I here? Why am I asking these questions? Why am I not just fucking numb?
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# Posté le dimanche 29 juin 2008 01:03

Nightrain

Nightrain
-------------------------------------------------------- LOVE G'N'R BITCHES ---------------------------------------------------------
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# Posté le vendredi 23 mai 2008 17:24

Before I forget

Before I forget
Yeah , samedi dernier (17) ont c bien gavé de bon metalcore à l'Anti avec Misery Signals , August Burns Red , EVERGREEN TERRACE et --------- AS I LAY DYING--------

* that was fucking aswome , that rock me out of myself ..... autant que les putes de l'autobus XD

poney boy a.k.a FuCkA
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# Posté le jeudi 22 mai 2008 19:06